Lighting my own way,

(Friday, November 13, 2009)

Utterly disappointed

I've just gotta

HOPE TILL THE END

(Sunday, October 18, 2009)

Counting down!!
Am excited yet nervous, gotta lose more weight before the big day.
Keep up!!!

(Tuesday, September 22, 2009)

School have started for almost a week.
Assignments have all been issued, its super fast!! I've also gotta start losing weight again to prepare. It's so difficult to curb at this period where you find mooncakes all over!! Tempting!! Counting down to a month.

(Tuesday, August 18, 2009)

I want to continue to walk into my beginning...
Whatever it takes...

(Thursday, August 13, 2009)

so plain, when will it be filled.
slashed countless times but still am stubborn enough to get slashed again.
will it heal? How?
i just pray for what i want.
even if it means pain, hardship, hurt or whatever, i just want to get it.
but why?
why am i feeling like this, empty?
just bleeds.

(Sunday, July 05, 2009)

i'm seriously getting lazy.
Problems after problems came rushing my way. When will i be able to stop it?
Or will it be wierd living a life without any problems?
SO bored and tired.
Can't wait for school to start! Its the first time i'm saying this.
Because Lazing around at home = growing fat, eat finish, watch tv, play computer.
Going out = spending money!!!
But at least now i have quality time with my dearest WAWA.
But staying at home also makes me spend my money, by e-shopping!!! I'm addicted to online shopping, and ebay!!!
OMG!!~
FINALLY!! my polaroid instanx camera is here!!!! I LOVE IT TILL MAD!!
Still waiting for my polaroid 600 to be delivered to my place. SO SO excited!!

I wanna go HK shopping badly!! counting down to 1 wk before i'm at HK!!
I think i'll grow FAT after the trip!! HAHAHA.. Its like a eating plus shopping trip and "Forgetting " trip~



Anyway, sorry guys to have made you worried about me the past few weeks, i know that what i've done have went down the drain. But I'm still doing my best in getting over it. Picking it up may seem easy, But putting it down is a difficut task i have to learn. Holding back tears and turning away is not me, but i'll try :)

P.S: addicted to TVXQ, POLAROIDS, WAWA!!!
blogger is having pics uploading prb!! too bad you can't see cutie wawa's polaroid!! HAHA

(Wednesday, June 17, 2009)

back to my cove again.
I think this is the only place where i can vent out whatever i feel unhappy about.
I understand that things isn't always seem the way it is.
Learning to give is one big step i've taken, not plainly giving, but giving without asking any in return. Its a huge difficult task for me seriously.
After so long, i managed to take that step out from my cover and try again, but what i see now is something that will make me create another cover around myself.
I can never imagine that it would happen to me again, never will i thought things would happen twice. My friend said if it happened twice, its ok, but twice, means stupid. People who knows, said that its a scam.
But i kept thinking that whatever is said maybe true, that someone may really need it. 5-10 mins is all i get from you.
Falling in is not easy, but walking out is even worst. I fell for it. And am serious about it, but i don't know what he's thinking. Been carrying on for long, i can no longer take it, nothing seems to walk my way, but all seems to walk from me to him. WHY?
Don't blame me for clinging on to the past, Its not that i want to, but it seems to repeat itself again and again. Person totally changed, but the road will still be the same. Should i carry on being in the middle, going on, being stateless or should i just let go and fall hard, forgetting it all.
Maybe rushing isn't the way, but asking for more, seems to be a question i have to face. Mind and body said No, but my heart said Yes.
I'm terribly confused.
I'm just a fool who knew that she was actually cheated, but allowed it to carry on.

Where is the ONE??